i'm who i want to be.love drugs, andrenaline my choice of dope, shoot it up ma vein.

Saturday, January 28, 2006 [[it's here]]


ALIIGHT GUYS, THE DARN CNY IS HERE
let said this year is kinda different- no half -day for school, no need to wear red clothes, no boring celebration, no Chinese orchestra and lion dance boring US out. woops.

whatever, boo to spendin CNY in singapore! misses the snow, and coolin temp. and the travellin. BUT gettin' all those red packets make me shiver, in a good way that is.
dread goin around and puttin a false front (smiling at all those strangers that comment endlessly on you) and pretending to laugh when your uncleS say
" happy new year, pull your ear" HAHA! try harder wrinkled dude.

whatever, meetin the DEVILS( yea man) FROM MY Maternal SIDE would be FUN. oh yea did i mention i'm finally goin to meet up with my long-lost paternal relatives. 4 longg years.

later!!
w-kIong|12:50 AM|

Sunday, January 22, 2006 [[21ST JANUARY]]

=) what more can i say??
i cant seems to leave my bed, maybe later. back to lalala land.feelin' OH SO warm now.(cause the conditioner is off dude)

w-kIong|11:20 AM|

Saturday, January 21, 2006 [[this is for you JAC]]

cheerio dudette.!whatever happen(what's up jac??), which dont kill you, only make you stronger!

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i'll be okay-mcfly
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When everything is going wrong
And things are just a little strange
It's been so long now you've forgotten how to smile
Overhead the skies are clear
but it still seems to rain on you
And your only friends all have better things to do
When you're down and lost and you need a helping hand
When you're down and lost along the way
Oh just tell yourself I'll i'll be ok
And things are only getting worse
and you need someone to take the blame
When your lover's gone there's no one to share the pain
You're sleeping with the tv on and you're lying in an empty bed
All the alcohol in the world would never help me to forget
When you're down and lost and you need a helping hand
When you're down and lost along the way
Just try a little harder
Try your best to make it through the day
Just tell yourself
I'll i'll be ok
You're not alone (you're not alone)
You're not alone (you're not alone)
You're not alone
Just tell yourself
i'll i'll be ok
Oh just tell yourself
i'll i'll be ok
Won't you tell yourself
i'll
When you're down and lost and you need a helping hand
When you're down and lost along the way
Just try a little harder
Try your best to make it through the day
Just tell yourself
i'll i'll be ok
i'll i'll be ok
i'll i'll be ok



with CNY and EXAMS and TESTS right around the corner, the little guy here are suffocating!! but a little nice weggie dinner will do the magic..

i SO dont wanna to go for my pop's reunion dinner, i dont wanna let them see the FAT FUCK i become.
i SO SO dont wanna sit for the basic micro bio test, so gonna flunk it.
i SO SO SO dont wanna sit for exams.

i SO SO SO SO wish those could happpen. but bleahs, it would.=(
so its time to eat those pizza and watch some punk'd and X games.!!
w-kIong|9:36 AM|

Tuesday, January 17, 2006 [[]]

i really have nothin' to write abt my life. but i'll try, i tried.
i bought 3 hello panda: 2 strawberries, 1 milk. and nachos as in the tibist pack, peanut butter waffer and cheese and ham sandwichs.
i think i'm just destroyin' myself literally with my own hands. all those junkies i consume,.. man defintely gonna take a BIGG TOLL on me. and its CNY soon.and i'm stuck here. ORH, lord help me. hey ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING IN THE FIRST PLACE. =(

pretty borin' lessons today, except for the joking part of MR G POI. things are pretty shitty. so during maths lesson, i took up drawin. was practically blasting songs into my ears while i move my brushes to the groove (yea right!).so here it is :







































drew everythin' within the first hour, and spent the next hour writin' down lyricses of songs. self entertainin huh.
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lyrics, be my escape - relient k
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I’ve given up on giving up slowly
I’m blending in so you won’t even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate

This one last bullet you mention
It’s my one last shot at redemption
Cause I know to live you must give your life away

And I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there’s no way of knowing
Where to go

I promise I’m going because…
I gotta get out of here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get out of here
And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape

I’ve given up on doing this alone now
Guess I failed and I’m ready to be shown out
You told me the way and now I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there’s no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I’m going because…

I gotta get out of here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake (yeah)
I gotta get out of here
And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self-detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for you to do what you can with me
But I can’t ask you to give what you already gave.
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity.



RECALL.........

yesterday night was just another lonngggg night for me, how i wish i could just pick up that book and do some studying.

i was listening to (on the way down- ryan cabrera) and was wonderin what's does it really look like when you're on your way down. so i decided to take a peep out. orh becareful when you try to take a glance too, kinda dangerous =)

hahas. half of my body was out and my legs was holding on to the edge of the table(table against the wall)

w-kIong|3:50 PM|

Monday, January 16, 2006 [[]]

blogg abt my life?? :

i slept with the stereo blasting last night, lights on. gees, must be too exhausted. pops woke me up around 7, luckily not my mum or else i'll be prolly be all bruised up today. i went back to rest and TA-DA i ws late. shower, grab clothes, and to schooll. nothin' really much. saw an old fren( np) in sp today and was like "woah, what's wrong?fell down a drain? you suck. " THANKS.

so school's over, went right back home, grabbed a big pack of super ring, cheeseballs, twisties, lays. and here i'm stuffin away. shit me. yes.

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mcFLy--i'll be OKAY
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When everything is going wrong
And things are just a little strange
Its been so long now you’ve forgotten how to smile
And overhead the skies are clear but it still seems to rain on you
And your only friends all have better things to do

When you’re down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When you’re down and lost along the way
Oh just tell yourself
I’ll, I'll be ok

When things are only getting worse
And you need someone to take the blame
When your lover's gone there’s no one to share the pain
You’re sleeping with the tv on and you’re lying in an empty bed
All the alcohol in the world would never help me to forget

When you’re down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When you’re down and lost along the way
Just try a little harder
Try your best to make it through the day
Oh just tell yourself
I’ll, I'll be ok

You’re not alone
[You’re not alone]
You’re not alone
[You’re not alone]
You’re not alone

Just tell yourself I’ll, I'll be ok
Oh just tell yourself, I’ll, I'll be ok
Won’t you tell yourself, I’ll be ok
When you’re down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When you’re down and lost along the way
Try a little harder
Try your best to make it through the day
And oh just tell yourself

I’ll, I'll be ok
I’ll, I'll be ok
I’ll, I'll be ok
w-kIong|5:08 PM|

Sunday, January 15, 2006 [[14/1/2006]]

I. Jesus of Suburbia

I´m the son of rage and love
the jesus of suburbia
from the bible of "none of the above"
on a steady diet of sodapop and ritalin
no one ever died for my sins in hell
as far as i can tell
at least the ones i got away with
but there's nothing wrong with me
this is how i'm supposed to be
in the land of make believe
that don´t believe in me

get my television fix sitting on my crucifix
the living room in my private womb
while mom's & dad's are away
to fall in love and fall in debt
to alcohol and cigarettes and mary jane
to keep me insane and doing someone else's cocaine

II. City of the damned

at the center of the earth
in the parking lot of the 7-11 where i was taught
the motto was just a lie
it says "home is where your heart is"
but what a shame
'cause everuone´s heart doesn't beat the same
we´re beating out of time
city of the dead
at the end of another lost highway
signs misleading to nowhere
city of the damned
lost children with dirty faces today
no one really seems to care
i read the graffiti in the bathroom stall
like the holly scriptures in a shopping mall
and so it seemed to confess
it didn´t say much
but it only confirm that
the center of the earth is the end of the world
and i could really care less

III. I Don´t Care

I don't care if you don't
i don't care if you don't
i don't care if you don't care
Everyone is so full of shit!
born and raised by hypocrates
hearts recycled but never saved
from the cradle to the grave
we are the kids of war and peace
from anaheim to the middle east
we are the stories and disciples of
the jesus of suburbia!
Land of make believe
and it don't believe in me and
i don't care !

IV. Dearly Beloved
Dearly beloved, are you listening?
i can't remember the words you were saying
are we demented?
or am i disturbed?
the space that's inbetween insane and insecure
oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
am i retarded?
or am i just overjoyed?
nobody´s perfect and i stand accused
for lack of a better word and that´s my best excuse

V. Tales of another broken home

to live and not to breathe
is to die in tragedy
to run, to run away to find what to believe
and i leave behind this hurricane of fucking lies
i lost my faith to this, this town that don't exist
so i run, i run away
to the light of masochists
and i leave behind this hurricane of fucking lies
and i walked this line a million and one fucking times
but not this time
i don't feel any shame, i won't apologize
when there ain't nowhere you can go
running away from pain when you've been victimized
tales from another broken home

BEAUTIFUL SOUL

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you, I'd be always faithful
I want to be What you always needed
Then I'll hope you see the heart in me
[Chorus]
You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind if you give me the chance
I'll never make you cry c'mon let's try
[Chorus]
Am I crazy for wanting you
Maybe do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide
[Chorus]

PEREFCT SITUATION
What's the deal
With my brain?
Why am I so obviously insane?
In a perfect situation
I let love down the drain
There's the pitch
Slow and straight
All I have to do is swing and I'm a hero
But I'm a zero

Hungry nights
Once again
Now it's getting unbelievable
'Cause I could not have it better
But I just can't get no play
From the girls
All around
As they search the night for someone to hold onto
And just pass through

Singin oh-oh,
oh-oh, ohhhh-hoooo
Singin oh-oh,
oh-oh, ohhhh-hoooo

Get your hands
Off the girl
Can't you see that she belongs to me?
And I don't appreciate this
Excess company
Though I can't
Satisfy
All the needs she has and so she starts to wander
Can you blame her?

Singin oh-oh,
oh-oh, ohhhh-hoooo
Singin oh-oh,
oh-oh, ohhhh-hoooo

Tell me there's a logic out there
Leading me to better prepare
For the day that something really special might come
Tell me there's some hope for me
I don't wanna be lonely
For the rest of my days on the earth

Oh-oh,
oh-oh, ohhhh-hoooo
Singin oh-oh,
oh-oh, ohhhh-hoooo
Singin oh-ohhhh...
w-kIong|6:34 PM|

[[]]

Whatcha doing tonight
I wish I could be
A fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealing your dreams

Why can't I breathe
You into my life
So tell me
What would it take
To make you see that I'm alive

If I was invisible
Then I could just
Watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell
You where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
Wait, I already am
w-kIong|3:54 AM|

[[SO WHAT, NO BIGGIES]]

"As I grow older, I taught myself not to hold on too much hope over something that can't even be confirmed. The higher the hopes I hold, the more disappointed I'd become" -qouted from jaccy.

congrats jac.

boo-hoo kiong. you such a wimp, shittin over your own pants. yet again.
w-kIong|3:28 AM|

Friday, January 13, 2006 [[13/1, friday, what more can i say]]

Should I? Could I?
Have said the wrong things right a thousand times
If I could just rewind, I see it in my mind
If I could turn back time, you'd still be mine

You cried, I died
I should have shut my mouth, things headed south
As the words slipped off my tongue, they sounded dumb
If this old heart could talk, it'd say you're the one
I'm wasting time when I think about it

Chorus: I should have drove all night,
I would have run all the lights
I was misunderstood
I stumbled like my words,
Did the best I could
Damn, misunderstood


nothin' wrong with the date boy, its smthing wrong with your brain. so what's the deal with your pea-brain, punk??
w-kIong|7:46 PM|

Thursday, January 12, 2006 [[D night sky]]

here it is. one of kIong fav. stuff -> the sky.

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NIGHT SKY (orion constellation)
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the orion actually is a hunter and the constellation can be easily recognised by the belt of three stars. look into the sky and you can find it pretty easily.

THE MOON:
so the legend goes abt saying theres a rabbit on the moon, and yes you actually can see a "rabbit" on the moon. its form by the craters on the moon.





p.s.: pardon my drawing. hmm i wonder if we can see chang er'. kinda cool if we can see her bathe =X *AHEM*



i made up my mind. i decided to clean up and out. =) no idea. SO STUPID
w-kIong|10:59 PM|

Tuesday, January 10, 2006 [[]]

today's pretty f-up. i lay around bed for a long time comin'
everyone's out. no lunch no dinner no supper, just bread bread more bread and some milo powder.( no boiled water too). but i prefer to be alone.

i practically spent the whole day tossin around in bed, doin what i do best. i didnt close the windows of my room and the rain drenched my desk. why am i bloggin? i dont know. shit stuff. mofo (did i use it correctly?)
guess too much daydreamin and too much layin arnd corrodes ma brain

slapped me once, got slapped twice. prolly would wake up after my face's bruised.
w-kIong|9:40 PM|

[[whatever]]

Gettin this stress that's been eatin me off this chest,at least have the decency in you to leave me alone, do not come and speak to me
I don't know you and no,i dont owe you a motherfuckin' thing
I'm not MR. FRIENDLY, I can be a prick
And all of this controversy circles me, you point a finger at me ..So I point one back , but not the index or pinkie or the ring or the thumb, it's the one you put up when you don't give a fuck, when you won't just put up with the bullshit, you're full of shit.
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end-of-story
w-kIong|3:52 PM|

Sunday, January 08, 2006 [[still a fat fuck]]

i just discover that irregular meals will lead to bingin'
see , i woke up like 12p.m today, ate ma first meal at 1.pm., then have my second meal at 4.30, mum whip up some food at 6.00, which of course, i finish 'em, then feelin empty i continue to finish the loaf of sunshine bread ( is a full loaf). hmm at 10, parent was back from their datin and bought back pizza from the p hut. its a large pizza stuffed crust which was halved by me and bro. hmmm do that make me fat fuck, yes! am i bein sarcastic, yes a little. (quoted dr A.A yuen)
w-kIong|10:30 PM|

Saturday, January 07, 2006 [[at home]]

i used to think that life had a plan for me ,until i realized life had to be planned by me ,see thats the key, i only deal with what i can see ,cuz over history ,mystery --brought us nothing but misery

3 entries today, parent's out. i'm so tired for the past week. believe me when i' say i was abt to black out. its killin' me inside, but i guess its worth while.
so here i'm, listening to songs for hours ,sortin out my mood and feelings', bloggin down whatever that expresses my moods, bingin hard, tryin to get back to the rythem of my life.

but i came to a sad conclusion :My words which I ate them for so long,nothing changed it was just the same =(

maybe i shld start mappin' out my life. was readin tong's blogg today(yes i'm a voyuer. great supporter of all my friend's blogg) maybe a plan would do me good, maybe. but to those who prolly know me well, i cant stand a fixed life.

if you peeps out there who's just surfing around and havin absolutely nah nah to do, try this on your blogg. think through the topp 3 places you would die to go.

heres's mine!
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places
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3) new zealand, to catch sunrise, set, star gazin' in the fields that stretch over the horizon.







2) divin' of course! PALUA ,micronesia










1) alaksa. aurora. yes i want to see it. TOPP it all off.
w-kIong|3:35 PM|

[[]]

Come here
Please hold my hand for now
Help me
I'm scared please show me how
To fight this
God has a master plan
And I guess
I am in his demand

Please save me
This time I cannot run
And I'll see
You when this is done
And now I
Have come to realize
That you are
The one who's left behind

Please stay, until I'm gone
I'm here, hold on
To me, I'm right here waiting

I see
The light it feels good
And I'll come
Back soon just like you would
It's useless
My name has made the list
And I wish
I gave you one last kiss

Please stay, until I'm gone
I'm here, hold on
To me, I'm right here waiting
And take, my one last breath
And don't forget
That I will be right here waiting

Please stay, until I'm gone
I'm here, hold on
To me, I'm right here waiting
And take, my one last breath
And don't forget
That I will be right here waiting

p.s : frankly I'm sick of talkin' ,I'm not gonna let someone elses coffin rest on my conscience
w-kIong|3:18 PM|

[[WEIRD]]

everything, everything look OH so weird.
juniors look weird,
teachers look weird,
school look weird,
i probably look weird there, judgin from the weird glances.

a blink of eye and i'm out of the school. yesterday i was in my bed, just night-dreamin about my sec 1 days. sec1 days of how i wish i could be sec 4 soon and sit in the gallery and the far end of the parade square. now lookin back, time really flies. =(

miss the alley, miss the peeps, miss the way i mugg, miss how we throws eggs on birthdays,miss rubbing chilli on birthday ppl, miss how we have to clean up, miss how the operation manager screw us, miss the morninng command i give in the morning, miss the pledge i need to give out, miss mc-ing, miss wanderin at the back of the hall during bigg events, miss the council room, miss the exco ppl,who prolly foregt us. miss....

ARH, just move on. no more uniform dude. not the clothes, niether the life.
w-kIong|12:19 PM|

Friday, January 06, 2006 [[]]

giddy spells cast on me for a week or so. feelin' so very weak now. break now my fren, just break down.


Stones taught me to fly
Love,it taught me to lie
Life, it taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon-
Stones taught me to fly
Love, it taught me to cry
So come on courage Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know
w-kIong|8:17 PM|

Wednesday, January 04, 2006 [[FED UP]]

oh its been a year since i last blogg. WAZZUP GUYS.
hahahs. yepp the highlights of the year for me is over. highlight = christmas, birthday, new year. THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH to each one of you.thanks for the PREZZIE, cookkiess. thanks for the sleepless nights, late nights, adipose, fats, acne,dark eye bagg too. idiots.


=) i'm just jokin`


yepp so this is it new year, new age, new chapter of life. i'm SHIVERIN, TREMBLIN , whatever you call it, with anticipation. oh mine....(shhh..)

been doin my training rescue, advance rescue, training assistant course for this time comin'.orh the new term schedule: 2 longgg weeks of theory from 5p.m. to 9.30p.m each day. FOR 2 WEEKS!!!!! but i'm lovin it. =)
then we would finally head out into the malayisa' water with some ngee ann freshie. and it would be our turn to scrutinise their ARSES!@!#$!#$!
orh yea just for you lost souls out there reading, this is a chart of courses in diving
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SCUBA DIVING
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basic open water (logg 8 dives)--> advanced open water(logg 20 dives)
--> rescue --> advanced rescue --> training assistant --> DIVEMASTER
--> instructor in training --> instructor --> BIGGIES..........

yepp in between of the courses, you have to be assessed by the instructor, and you have to take specialities courses and stuffs.

VERY FUN. VERY COSTLY too. but why not just learn some basic diving skills, then try out in the water, decide whether you like it or not. then =) just have fun.
p.s: its very addictive, kids beware of this "drugg" your brother here's hooked up.

oh this is my longest entry ever, cause i'm waiting for my mum to GET OUT OF THE BATHEROOM> BEENIN HOGGIN IT FOR HOURS.

aiight adios my fella's.
w-kIong|9:00 PM|

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